By Lars Muhl
That well-known feeling of “I” and of being bound to the physical world is gone. The closest analogy I can use to describe my present state is that of Light flowing within indefinable darkness. I am still “myself,” but the physical boundaries that define “I” have been dispersed. Even though there is a sensation of the ethereal substance which still invokes a feeling of self, it is the higher Self, freed from the noise of the personality, a core of pure consciousness slowly spreading and merging symbiotically with everything around me. However, in spite of this feeling of utter unification with all things, there is, at the same time, an undefinable feeling of a veil that leaves me with a perception of a threshold toward the ever-expanding Light. I’m unable to grasp the depth of my experience, but somehow I know that it will connect me to the frequency that one day will provide access to the gateway I am looking for.
My soul yearns to be set free from this state of separation. I remember the time Calle de Montségur introduced me to the Shaft of the Soul. The Shaft of the Soul is a metaphor that describes the very moment a soul leaves the physical reality. In my mind’s eye I can see myself standing in the shaft with Calle as he shows me how all images are, in fact, one image; that all people are but one person; and I realize how the disintegration of the physical reality that I am experiencing at this moment is actually the state I have to be in so I can travel through both time and space, leaving behind the three-dimensional reality, becoming one with all other souls and seeing all images as one image. In essence, we are all kings and beggars, executioners and victims, heroes and villains, adults and children, women and men – until we are no longer any of these singular fates but merely the simultaneous sum of all experiences.
When we meet deceased family members or friends, we meet them in their purest form, freed from all the personal noise that colored their souls when they were incarnated and played their roles as uncles, aunts, fathers, mothers, and sons, daughters, brothers, sisters, etc. On the other side of the veil, all suffering and personal neuroses are put aside.
When we reincarnate, once again descending through the Shaft of the Soul, we accept responsibility for the tasks we were unable to transform in our previous incarnation. When the soul is leaving the physical realm, there are no “places” as perceived in the incarnation, only levels of consciousness. These levels manifest themselves in different ways. The physical level vibrates slowly. The higher the consciousness, the quicker the vibrational level.
Symbols, metaphors, and archetypical images are the languages needed in order to understand the earthly incarnation. A time will come when the incarnated soul realizes that this symbolic language is the only way humanity can experience and express ways of breaking through its physical limitations and can take the next step forward toward the inner, holographic, and multidimensional levels. The soul already contains this universal language within itself – it just needs to be activated. At this moment, humanity is too focused on finding technological solutions for every problem. But, as Calle de Montségur said, every time we use a GPS, we are turning our back on humanity’s own inner GPS, or what used to be called intuition. Man’s intuition is the finest and most accurate measuring device to be found in the physical world and provides, therefore, the best chance for inner contact with the Divine.
Despite this fact, we have managed to totally undermine our faith in our intuition. A physical measuring device points outwards toward the noise-filled emptiness, while a spiritual measuring device points inwards toward presence and into eternity, our true home. That is why it is so crucial to acknowledge and develop our spiritual potential and demand that the limitations a narrow, scientific attitude has placed on humanity during the past few centuries are put aside, and a new, open, prejudice-free awareness is actively developed.
This development also requires a serious willingness to transform neuroses and sufferings. The best remedy for hopelessness, pain, grief, and longing is to abandon the ego’s self-centered antics and begin to truly see others and do something for them. This is true both personally and collectively. If I long for or lack something, I know that the remedy lies in all those things I fail to give others. If I feel rejected, it is usually because I have adopted a rejecting attitude. Everything I send out returns, at some point or another, to me. This law of reciprocity can be so subtle that the connection is not always obvious, but nevertheless, it is a living reality.
A pale, lilac light fills the room. I look around, disorientated, and realize I must have fallen asleep during the meditation. Outside, a new day is dawning. The book lies on the bedside table. I open it, searching for the page of the missing verse. To my amazement, it is no longer blank! A couple of lines have been added with plenty of room for more text underneath.
I sit staring at this sentence. I recognize the Christian mystic Master Eckhart’s famous words in it. Was this what Yeshua meant when He said to His disciples: “My Father and I are one”? That sentence, in all its simplicity, is one of the most revolutionary messages in the New Testament. It is a message proclaimed by someone who saw A through the Eye mentioned. In the writings of the Essenes, we find that if this all-seeing Eye was to close for just one second, all created things would instantly cease to exist.
“The Light of the body is in the Eye. Therefore, if you perfect this sight and make the two into one, your whole body will be filled with Light.” This is how Yeshua is quoted in the Gospel of Matthew 6:22. And when He talks about Light, He means consciousness.
“When you make the two one, and you make the outer even as the inner and the above even as the below, and when you make the masculine and the feminine as one, then will the masculine no longer be masculine nor the feminine, feminine, and when you can see with new eyes and can see a new hand in the hand and a new foot in the foot when you have seen your true Image, then you can enter into the Kingdom.” This is what Yeshua says in the Gospel of Thomas 22.
How come we human beings have misunderstood or overlooked this essential information about who we really are? When Yeshua tells us we shall be born again in this life, could it have something to do with this new way of looking at things? To see everything anew means that we need to activate the Heart into a center of purified feelings – compassion instead of emotions. And the Pineal into a center of purified thoughts – visions instead of memories. Once we are able to fulfill this practice on an everyday level, we will understand that we are first and foremost spiritual beings, incarnated right now in a physical body, and how important it is to find the right balance between these two realities.
“That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit, is Spirit. You should not be surprised when I tell you that you must be born again. The wind blows where it wills; you hear the sound of it but cannot see from where it comes or where it goes: that is how it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit.” 1
Could that have been what happened to Saul, on his way to Damascus to hunt down and kill Christians, when he suddenly heard Yeshua’s words as an inner voice and lost his physical sight? For three days, under the guidance of an
Essene therapist, he was taken through the rebirth initiation, the true baptism that Yeshua had taught the Essenes. After three days, he had become transformed from the hate-filled Saul to Paul, the preacher of Love. The new inner sight became united with the outer sight of the eyes, and his seeing was restored. He began a new life. He could suddenly see. See himself and the trail of ignorance, death, and destruction he had dragged behind him wherever he went. He was, at once, granted admittance to a higher plane of consciousness. He now saw and understood that he had been given a chance to choose a new direction in his life.
Paul’s is the story of Jonah, who was swallowed up by the great fish and had to remain inside it for three days before being born again; of Lazarus, who was awoken to life by Yeshua after lying in the grave for three days; and of Yeshua Himself, who, after three days in the grave, rose from the dead.
Paul’s story is also ours, as we, through sheer ignorance, drag a trail of misery and death behind us, caused by our
estranged and detached way of living: buying, consuming, and throwing away. We, too, will be forced one day to wake up and take responsibility for our
actions. No one in the Western world can imagine suddenly having to leave their house and home because of drought, floods, or other natural disasters. No one can imagine standing as a refugee at the border of another country and being flatly refused entry.
We need to wake up from our deep, more-or-less unconscious sleep and re-establish the connection between us and A. But it has to be real and not mere lip service. Words can be cheap. We see and hear this every single day when we are spoken to like sheep or cannon-
fodder instead of fellow citizens and equal souls, or when we, in turn, talk to others without respect for their integrity. We also see the emergence of clergy within the different spiritual communities who seems to have more focus on the marketplace or on maintaining their own status than on the spiritual wellbeing of their followers.
Fake news has become such an integral part of humanity’s reality that its darkness insidiously corrupts everything in and around us with half-truths and lies. We need to break with our own lies first, and then the global ones can be addressed. The Knight of the Grail needs to slay the dragon within himself so that the Princesses of Wisdom, Sofia, and Shekinah, can regain their full freedom, not only in the world but, most importantly, in each one of us.
[1] The Gospel of St John 3:6
